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Dear Readers,
Today, I have been inspired to write about what it was like meeting, loving, and parting from my twin flame. I wrote a post a long time ago, titled,”14 signs of a Twin Flame” and for some reason, it has blown up all over the internet. I get hundreds of views everyday, on just this one post, and my numbers continue to grow. My belief is, large amounts of people are dealing with these same feelings or experiences as I have. For those of you who actually have followed my blog from the start, will know, this whole blog is basically my outlet to cope with parting with my greatest love of my life and the lessons I learned from it.
Here is my story:
I am a violinist: I first studied in New york, and then Germany. I was very unhappy at the music school in Germany and my german friend I met in New york, helped me score an audition in Belgium.
This is where my story begins. My ex, or Mr. X as I will refer to him, was the first person I met. He had his lesson right after my audition, and since he was my teachers best student, he was eager to show him off to me. He asked me to stay and watch and I remember, the feeling was very strange. It wasn’t, “love at first sight”, it was more like, a bond, as if we had met before. I remembered he played, Mendelssohn violin Concerto, and he was wearing a white shirt with sneakers.
When I entered the conservatory that September, we would bump into the halls casually but it was not some electric chemistry where I felt any attraction to him, but again, I was extremely comfortable with him. I remember the first conversation we had, he had asked me if we had met before, and I laughed, thinking, absolutely not, I grew up in the US and there was just no way. At the time he was dating another girl at the Conservatory, and from what I thought at the time, they were a “cute couple”. She was also a violinist, and a very nice girl. We all studied with the same professor, so we became “casual” friends.
My friendship with Mr. X was very unique, and something I never imagined would evolve the way it did. For the first 3 years, I would bump into him randomly around school, but quite rarely. However, when we did, it was like meeting an old friend, this was odd for both of us because we are both not “open” people,and rather introverted. We both kept the doors closed to most people, but from the start it was easy to speak from a very truthful and deep place. I can remember one time, he asked me to go for a walk with him. It was very random, but I said yes, and we just talked about everything. Things from our childhood, and personal memories, very random conversation, but never awkward. From the start, we could talk to each other for hours. It wasn’t romantic, not even a little. I was not attracted to him in a “romantic” way and he wasn’t either, but somehow we were very close.
After 3 years of friendship, he broke up with his girl friend, and started hooking up with other girls, nothing serious just fun. It didn’t bother me at all, but our friendship began to grow. He started calling me more and more, to the point we were talking everyday. One day, he called me out of the blue, and asked me if I wanted to go to Paris with him the next day, because he would be performing a concert there. Normally, I would never say yes to such a spontaneous request, but I could never say no to him for some reason. I can still remember the cute little french church he gave his concert in! it was about a 2 hr drive from Belgium, but it was so much fun talking. By the time the concert was done, it was late but I can remember he was so eager to show my the Eiffel tower, and Notre Dame. We had a cute little dessert in a French Cafe near Notre Dame. I remember I had a creme brulee, and I can’t remember what he had, lol, I guess I was too busy on my creme brulee. Anyways, afterwards, we walked to Notre Dame, and on the bridge, he looked to me and said, “The only thing that would make this night more perfect would be a kiss.” Unfortunately for him, I burst into laughter, and said, too bad you came with me, right? After that, I went home for the summer and thought nothing of that night, Later he would reveal to me that was the moment for him, that he knew he loved me.
After that night, I hd noticed, something had changed a little, he became quieter, and more closed. I was still clueless, but one night he was acting so weird, I begged him to tell me what was wrong, I remember that night so well, he was nervous and fidgety, he finally stopped his car in front of my apartment, and gathered enough courage to tell me he liked me. I told him, “ya..I like you too, we are best friends remember? He responded nervously, “No. I really like you, I mean more than friends”. I was shocked, speechless, and unable to return his affection, my Brain still didnt know I too had loved him. The rejection was very hard on him, and after that confrontation, our friendship quickly soured to the point we had a huge fight over the most silly things. We didn’t contact for 6 months, and it was the worst 6 months of my life. It was at this time I realized I had feelings for him. I coudn’t get him out of my heart or head. He was constantly on my mind, and I would even cry some days. It was the strangest reaction, I felt I was either losing my mind, or this must be love.
One day, I was so sad, I went out for a walk, and came across an adorable card. It reminded me of Mr.X and his Birthday was approaching. I didn’t buy it with the intention to give it to him, but I was so sad that day, I just bought it because it reminded me of him. I filled out the card sealed it, and carried it with me. I don’t know why. Anyways, A couple days later, I bumped into his brother at school. I though about giving him the card to give to his brother but I chickened out. When I got home, I decided, I should have given him the card, and headed write back. I promised myself, if I bumped into his brother again, I would give him the card. I know this will be hard to believe, but his brother literally as I was walking back came driving by. It was pure coincidence, and of course I took it as a sign. I gave him the card, and Mr. X sent me a reply on Facebook a couple days later.
You would think after everything, I would tell you happily ever after. I knew I loved him, he knew he loved me, what could go wrong? The answer is, everything. After I realized I loved him, when we got back together we didn’t immediately become a couple. He was so loving to me, and so understanding, but I was scared to love him. I was never more scared in my life, to “need” someone so much was terrifying. I still tried to remain just friends for another 6 months until finally, we had our first kiss.
After the kiss, there was no going back. It was the most unbelievable feeling of my life.It was as if our souls bonded together, and I never wanted to let him go. Every kiss after that day, was always a confirmation, he was my soul partner. I could hate him bitterly, but as soon as he touched me, or kissed me, or even just a hug, I never wanted him to let me go.
Finally, I knew I couldn’t fight it anymore, but I still did. My mom, was against me dating him, and she felt he was not suited for me. I tried again, to not be together, but it wasn’t possible.
From the start of our relationship has always been on and off. In the beginning it was always my fault. I was so scared, I always tried to find ways to get out of loving him so much. He was the rock, and always loved me, and took care of me, an listened to me. Sometimes, I would think to myself, he must really love me, to take all this nonsense.
Later, I realized it wasn’t nonsense at all. The problem was, my twin flame and me are exactly alike but complete opposites. We are both, stubborn, and introverted, and have a problem admitting when we are wrong. We both are highly opinionated and yet our beliefs are as north and south as you could possibly get.
Arguing was our thing. The last two years it felt like all we did was argue. As twisted as this may sound, I even loved arguing with him. He was the only person in the world I was close enough with to argue so honestly of what I felt, or really believed. The problem is, you can’t really function with all this hostility. It was at this time I developed my Panic attacks. My dreams of becoming a violinist also became impossible, due to my anxiety. My friendships suffered, and we both knew this was not healthy for both of us, and yet we kept on trying because it was so hard to let go of each other. My health was suffering. I was constantly sick, and I would never get better. From hives, to migraines, to chest pains, to skin rashes, one thing led to another. I was also suicidal at times, and I cannot believe Im admitting it now, but I was. I finally made a desperate decision to leave Belgium, and go back home. Even after all this, Mr. X and me tried to make it work. The last day I saw him was at the airport in Brussels. I look back and remember him watching me leave into the gates, and just staring, but with eyes I had never seen, Its really as if in some deeper level he knew it would be the last time.
We still attempted to keep our relationship going for another 3 months, long distance, but it grew increasingly hard for both of us. Until one day, he told me he wanted to end it. I was shocked, and devastated, but somehow I knew it had to happen as well. I wasn’t living anymore. I was just waiting around Skype, wanting to be with him. My brain knew I needed to break up as much as he did. He also was increasingly depressive, and his use of weed was increasing. He didn’t want to feel things anymore. One of my last conversations, we argued about the existence of a soul. He didn’t believe there was such a thing as a soul, but it was rather just the result of chemicals in the brain. It was his belief in the future scientist would be able to create a pill that could fix feelings of “love”.
For him, love was like a disease, and he wish he could be cured of me. It wasn’t convenient to care. For him, Love was in the way for what he really wants. He wants, fame, and career, and to have respect. He always felt I was what stood in his way.
For me, physically I am much better now. My panic attacks are less, even though I did just have one today, but I am otherwise in good health. I can function now, and I am able to think about things regarding my own dreams and desires. Lately, every job interview I attempt, I succeed, it is as if my luck has changed. However, everyday I am confirmed he is my soul partner. He is with me somehow. I realize it is such a weird thing to say, and only if you have felt it, would you understand what I mean. Me heart is literally broken, and I am an open wound. Every good or lucky thing that happens, is wonderful, but it somehow doesn’t mean as much. These mixed feeling have led me to a life of reflections, and realizing how wrong we are to put so much attention to things like money, fame, and power. I realize this because, none of these things can save you from a broken heart. The only thing that can save you and that matters is LOVE.
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In Eat, Pray, Love Elizabeth Gilbert describes a soulmate as that person who tears down your walls and smacks you awake. She goes further still and says that it’s simply to painful to live with a soulmate. This post reminds me of that …
hi ophelia, YES, I loved that movie. It is so true. Meeting a soulmate is the luckiest thing in the owrld, but equally painful. thank you for commenting. xx
😭😭😭 This makes me so sad! At least you had a unique experience that helped you transform into the atrong resilient person you are today.
its very beautiful for me to read this sharing, the part that reached deepest, was how now, after the separation with an absolute broken heart, every beauty is a wonder but nothing can recover something…my dream beloved turned into a nightmare of horror…my descent into the depths of despair was shocking, when the Heart is broken … words cannot fill that void .. once I believed, now I am a frozen emptiness .. i wonder what will melt this .. my heart says, only the purest Grace .. thank you so much for sharing
Dear Rama, As you know, I know exactly how you feel. Being so Heartbroken, everything is somehow painful. The thing I didn’t know was how mich beauty there is in pain. To love someone so much, even after the disappointment, and heartache. My heart is not frozen, and neither is yours, if you feel oain, it means it still burns life. Never regret what you feel, because it is in pain we find growth and rebirth. Take care.
thanks so much for this post. i’ve been searching internet through and through trying desperately to find some answers on something that happened to me about a month ago. last few months i had this weird feeling that something big and significant will happen and my life will change somehow. month ago i decided to leave the country i’ve stayed for the last 7 years and move abroad. upon arrival i met a man who’s older than me. i had this extraordinary feeling that i knew him well even though we’ve never met before. he spotted me and all the following week he was following me everywhere i moved. like a glue. we went for walks, chatted for hours like we were best friends and told each other things we never said to anyone. i had to remind myself that he was a complete stranger but for some reason i felt this overwhelming affection. i never heard before about twin flames or read anything on soul mates. but suddenly i felt like i met him in my previous life. reading more into it i realized we were something more. after month we both said to each other that we were in love and being together felt so good like nothing i had ever experienced before. this whole thing is so weird and i’m still a bit shocked and confused. i cannot explain what happened. in my 30 years i have never experienced anything like it. i feel safe with him, like at home and completely calm. he said the same thing about me. how can i explain to him or even to myself about what happened. it’s been only a month and i feel like we’ve been married for 50 years?!! unreal!
hi katy, thank you for sharing your story. it sounds like you are very much in love, and I wish you two happiness and a “happily ever after”. Take care.
This website has been something I’ve wanted to know from others. I found my soulmate and twinflame in this life. They say, it rare to find your soulmate, but extremely rare to find your twin! Almost impossible to find both. I should really say:”They found me by moving to my state!” My story is deep and so shocking to most I want to share it but “Not sure WHERE I should put it… ‘?”
Katy, I felt the same way with this man I met from a dating site. We’ve been talkign foa about a month online before we actually met in person. We did have a good connection online. We were worried though that we might not have the chemistry in person. We were more of like virtual lovers. But nothing can prepare us when we first met. There was an instant magnetic pull. Less than 20 minutes we met in a public place by the lounge room of a five star hotel, we were in this quiet corner kissing and holding each other close. Everything about me in that instant changed. The rules of dating that I followed strictly just flew out of the window. We both felt so intimate, so comfortable just touching, holding each other close. It was like it will be painful not to. We felt so familiar to each other, so comfortable that it felt we’ve been married forever and ours was a blissful one. How do you explain this? Normally, I am an analytical person. It was very hard to get me to meet any potential candidates as I’ve set up a tough online screening. Meaning no one ever get past my different levels of screenings before. So you can imagine even in a first meeting with a person I talked for hours before meeting, I still used or at least intended to use all my mental faculties to assess, evaluate, analize my date. That night, for some reasons, right when we came in close proximity to one another, all my mental faculties were immediately suspended. I felt like I just walked into a different dimension and my consciousness has been altered. An invisible force was in total control and operated only from my heart that’s fully open. We couldn’t let go of each other that night. I couldn’t let go of him. My life turned upside down after that initial meeting. If this is not a twin soul connection, how do you explain this phenomenon?
Falling madly deeply in love is common to most people. Authentic twin flames have full length telepathic conversations and are extremely rare. The twin flame experience is just that, an experience, it is not a relationship of romance. It is a meeting of the primal feminine and masculine energies. Spoiled rich women can not buy this experience with money. It is a blessing from God – usually to people who have suffered much in life.
kim, it is not accurate to say only “authentic” twin flames have full length telepathic communication. Yes. You have a soul connection and you have the ability to communicate through telepathy but if one twin or both want to block or deny those messages, you can. I don’t believe it is a blessing from God to only people have suffered a lot in life. It is a gift to all people. Anyone who opens up to their own soul, have the ability to find their twin.
I can say with out a doubt 100% and bet my first born on it that the entire twin flame experience is controlled by a higher power. If humans, twin flames or not, had telepathic abilities with out moderation, we would all go insane. “Anyone who opens up their own soul” No, a higher power chooses when you will meet your twin based on many tests you must pass through out life. Then you are trained before you meet him/her. It is not easy and the suffering is intense. You will be humbled and broken.
your soul is the higher power.
No you can’t block it, near the end of the experience I starting freaking out – I didn’t want the telepathy anymore…he apologized but said he didn’t know how to stop it…we would connect telepathically just by thinking about each other. I told him to stop thinking about me, to focus on something else but that didn’t work. I started freaking out because I would say things I didn’t mean, like call him bad names. It was very embarrassing…soon after I had enough of it it came to an end, my free will was being respected and the beings put a stop to it. We talked telepathically all day (on and off) everyday for 4 months.
And usually given to people who have done the soul work. : ) thanks for sharing. So true.
I think the new agers call it a higher self. I don’t know what it’s called but she looked like me except she was an incredibly beautiful version of me. I was guided by her voice all though she only appeared to me once. Was she my higherself, soul, or holy spirit, I’m not sure, but I didn’t read about these things in the bible. Anyway, before twins meet in real life, they go through a phase filled with mystical experiences all done through the mind. This process is completely controlled. Once balance of the masculine and feminine energies are achieved they can meet in real life. That is how the real process works.
hi there! i really appreciate this article. as you said, anyone who hasn’t experienced this wouldn’t know how it feels, and anyone who hasn’t experienced this wouldn’t appreciate your article as much as i do. i just came out of such a “relationship”; luckily, for us, it was much shorter, although I’m sure equally beautiful and painful at its peaks. I just wanna let you know that please don’t feel sad. after reading your article today, i came to a realization that twin flames were one before we were born on earth and our mission is to split up and gain what we need to for ourselves. in the end of the journey, it’s what we gained that measures our success. we are not on earth to love each other, but rather, help add to our (you and your twin)’s “resume”. we cannot be with each other because earth does not allow that to happen; that’s why when we are together, we can only experience pain and no materialistic progress. think of it this way, we (you and your twin) determined to do this (incarnate on earth) together and promised each other that you will not reunite until your missions are accomplished. this way, you will have the determination to fulfill your missions because only then, can you, once again, reunite with your twin (or, when you die; but if you will die anyway, why not fulfill your missions before death? :). you and your twin are one, you will never be separated. this separation is only temporary – life is but a second in eternity. best wishes. please be happy. the pain and emptiness will accompany us our whole life, but despite pain, life is still worthy to be enjoyed! be happy, and your twin will feel it and appreciate it while you are temporarily separated! =) love!
Honestly, I found comfort in reading your story. I, too, began experiencing migraines, hives, panic attacks, rashes, etc. when my twin flame and I were reaching our first separation. I learned eventually, when I finally could allow myself to think of him without experiencing the same breathtaking pain of loss, that we both had to evolve. Our bond is as strong today as it was the day we met almost 15 years ago, although it took us both years to forgive each other for our first separation. We both have families now, and continue to reconnect when one feels the other more insistently than usual. We’ve both learned that we’re better for each other when we aren’t in a “relationship”. Everything we feel is extreme, and we rarely agree on anything. Despite our polar opposite differences, there is an unconditional love and acceptance. Always forgiveness and a smile, eventually. Any time we come together, there is a feeling of profound peace in my soul. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and know there are others who share in this.
hi. thank you for your comforting words of encouragement. x
kitchenmisadventures,
Your story is interesting. I don’t know if the man I dreamed of was my soulmate or not, but we had so much of the same things some of you described. There is a forum that I have been going to for years. One night, I dreamed that I saw this one guy posting with another lady. I didn’t know that guy, but I was filled with jealousy. And then in the next scene, it seems like he and I had ran away together, we were sitting in a train boxcar. He was sitting with his back to one of the walls and I was sitting between his legs with my back to him. I remember feeling such an intense love, as if that was exactly where I belonged. In the next scene, he and I were both standing outside, on the rails of the train, with the wind blowing. I was clinging onto him, and he was holding me. I had my face on his chest. We both knew someone or something was coming to separate us and that we only had a little bit of time together. In the last scene, he was on the ground and I was on the train, slowing moving away. I was looking at him and he was looking at me. He was about 5′ 8″, had a crew cut, buffed, not too muscular, but nicely built. I could see his face, but everything else was quite clear.
I woke up and remember thinking that I had never really posted with this guy before. A few days later, I saw him posting, and remembered the dream. I didn’t say anything to him but kept thinking about it. A few weeks went by and I sent him a private message, telling him about the dream. I asked him what he looked like and he said that it pretty much match the man in my dream.
A few months passed, and I saw him post something about LinkedIn, so I responded that I had just opened an account on there too. We linked up and through out the next two or three years, would often stopped to look at each other’s profile and wondered how the other person was doing. But we never did messaged each other or never talked again.
About 4 years had passed since the dream, when there was this strange nickname on the site that kept grabbing my attention. When I click on the thread, it wasn’t anything spectacular. It happened like that for a few weeks until I could not stand it anymore and sent that person a private message… asking why the name kept grabbing my attention. He laughed and said that it was him, the man I dreamed about. I didn’t quite believe him… until he told me that we are both hooked up on Linked and that share the dream, almost word for word.
From there, we connected and could sense each other… speaking the thoughts in each other’s mind… mainly through writing. We were both married and he knew my husband well and my husband know both him and his wife. We decided to be each other’s best friends. But as time went on, I was thinking about him so much, I was no longer living or enjoying my family. All I wanted was to be with him. When I was with my husband, I felt like I was cheating on him. And when I knew that his wife was home and in bed with him, I was extremely jealous.
Then one day, I found out that there was another woman from the same sight in love with him. I confronted him and he said that there was nothing going on between them, he was simply helping her through her marriage problems. Her husband asked me if they could be having an affair. I told him that I didn’t think so. I told him what a wonderful person this man was… that the friendship was purely platonic.
A few months later, I found out that another woman, who is sort of a friend of mine, was also inlove with him and was ready to leave her husband for him. Upon comparing notes with her, it seems like this guy morphed into whoever the woman needed him to be. Which is why I am not quite certain if he is my twin soul or not. But the hate was as intense as the love. This other woman wasn’t quite as angry with him nor did she felt as betrayed as I was. To me, he was my twin soul. But I felt like to him, I was just another woman he played with.
Other friends around us said that they could sense something between the two of us too. And even after I hated him, many of them tried to fix it between us. I sent him hateful e-mails… and in all of them, all he did was apologized for any misconception he may have caused.
About a year later, we sort of reconnected and talked a bit. The attraction is still there, but I am guarded now because I feel that I don’t quite know who he is. We finally met in real person last summer. We were both at a conference and I saw him and we shook hands and took a few pictures together… he and my husband did most of the talking. I was afraid to talk to him too much, not knowing how much of our attraction would be visible to other people. We were too intellectually and mentally connected that it would look odd to other people.
Like you, whenever we are together, it’s comforting and peaceful. But I am so fearful of my feelings for him.
I had a dream about a year ago that was nothing like no other dream I have ever had and I remember every single detail of it still. The feeling I had in the dream is still with me.
I was marrying a man in beautiful fairytale like green woods. I did not see his face but his hair was brown and curly, he took my hand and I felt like we blended into one and we ran and ran and ran so fast through the woods and we didn’t see anything but the trees flashing by. We ran so fast that our feet didn’t even touch the ground, I will never forget the way he held my hand and I felt ultimately safe and at peace. In the dream I could hear my grandmother say to him that he needs to be careful with me because I’m just a child.
I almost never dream and remember it but when I do its usually a really strong dream that stays in my mind for a long time and leaves me shocked when I wake, but I will never ever forget this dream. I didn’t know anything about twin flames or others experiences with this at the time but now that I’m reading your story I just instinctively felt that it was my twin flame I met. I didn’t see him but I knew that he was absolutely beautiful, soft, gentle, fiery, loving, wonderful. The fact that my grandmother in the dream told him to be careful has to mean something as well, and the fact that I’m 21 has to mean that he is much older than me or maybe time doesn’t exist in universe. I have this really weird feeling that he is out there but I just haven’t met him. I know this sounds like a romantic teenage daydream but I absolutely swear I feel his heartbeat and I know he is wandering around like waiting or I don’t know. I feel him.
hi kylerjalen,
you asked me why my twin and i had to break when we had the freedom to be together? Yes it is true, neither of us were married, or had any outside factors that forced us apart, but the truth is, we couldn’t function together.
We tried for years to make it work. Both him and me, would normally “NEVER” accept the crazy things we both did to each other, but our crazy love kept us going back to each other. Mind you, we were best friends for 3 and half years, and were together for another 4 years. We even discussed marriage. The problem is something no one can understand unless they have experienced it. All my friends could not understand at all why I was with this guy who made me cry so much. I could not help going back to him, he was part of me.p, and there was no else so dear to my heart. However, you can imagine so many years of such a chaotic life, my health started to suffer. I had constant panic attacks, chest pains, depression, and constantly sick. My ex also changed. His career was falling apart, he started smoking, drinking, weed, etc. we were bith falling apart. I finally made the decision to leave europe and move back home. it was a hard decision, but i just had no more strength. Even then we tried to stay together but a couple months later, i knew something was bothering him, but he wouldnt say, and then he broke up with me for good, and normally i would beg to get back, but somehow I knew, it was time to let go. it broke my heart, and i live with constant pain, but i still love him, that is the greatest phenomena of all.
So in otherwords ya’ll brought out the worst in each other and you both started suffering because you were together.
Allison,
it’s a bit deeper than that. Facts are not always as important as the intent behind the actions. In other words. Not everyone can move you to the point of self destruction. How much someone can hurt you really stands on the basis of how much you care about that person. It is odd to think but the person you love the most, has the power to move you to the brightest joy, and the deepest pain. Nobody talks about the pain part, because everyone wants to believein this fantasy that love is only peaches and cream, and everything is perfect and nice. Love can be great, but you can be sure if one of you or both of you have “baggage” or issues, it will also be a hard and hurtful experience as well, simply because you care, and they have the power to do so.
My pain is very fresh, as in within 2 hours. It’s a separation I know needs to be done, but it hurts so bad the moment we’re about to let go that I get hostile and start blaming him for everything.
How do you deal with it. How do you cope, now that life feels less of a vibration. Luck may change, but it will feel numbed, is what I perceive. Especially with the ‘open wound at all times’. How do you deal with it. Because I can barely see myself living like that. Imagining it, I look like a zombie.
I left a reply not too long ago. can you please respond to leilanib92@gmail.com
hopefully I hear from you. it’s a devastating situation and hard not to feel like this love is a curse.
Hii Princess,
After reading your story i must admit it was like reading my own story. Much of ur story relates to mine. Its been 2yrs since me n my ex separated and i still cry on a regular basis. I met him wen i was 17. It feels like my life has hit a wall widout door. Just like you we were also exhausted by arguing & fighting all the time during the last year of relation. What added to it was him going around wid another girl along with me n der relation started 2months before we separated.
He simply made a convenient choice by choosing her over me bcos she was easy n madly in love with him. I broke immediatly wid him felt like my whole life was ended at an instant. Even after breaking up it took a very long time wid the after math. Like i broke up in nov 2011 but he just cudnt leave me alone so he kept calling me even after dat ignoring his girlfriends insecurities as she was aware of everything but was unable to leave him. She use to call me asking whether he is still wishing bdays n everything i use to reply her wid hostility. By aug 2012 he stopped calling as i was not ready to listen to anything he wanted say or justify his acts. I was too heartbroken n for me he alreadt had made a choice which was not me. He hated the fact dat i hate him so much for betraying me. Even after dat he called me many times till may 2013 trying to make last bit amends after that he simply got engaged to same girl he betrayed me for.
Even my mother used to hate my ex.
Recently more things are happening to torture me further like wenever i am sad abt my life’s current situation or worrying abt my work or feeling lost things not related to him. The very night i see him in my dreams or i shud say i meet him in my dreams and it all feels real as if its really happening at the moment. In my dreams he asks abt all my problems den we both discuss it n he gives me a solution to it. If not solution den he simply consoles me n ask me to be strong.
I havnt spoken to him since may 2013 and last met him in july 2012. Dese dreams are something new as if he is always der listening to my thoughts, meeting me in dreams wenever im too much stressed abt my current life.
I would like to know has anyone else experienced dat? This dream phenomenon?
There are few more things i wud like to tell dat me and my ex were best friends for 2yrs before we became couple. Initially it was all bliss den we just cudnt function together. Our dreams , goals in life were all separate from each other. Internally we were same but externally we were polar opposites. So far things hav got easy n the pain is still der but i hav learned to live with it. Im following my goals in life n this phenomenon changed me n my life forever.
Before i met him i was scared of being alone, looking for approval from everyone, highly introvert( he was the first person with whom i had a lot deeper conversations and opened up completely, something very rare with me had no idea of my own reality, my own nature n capabilities but as i learnt to trust him n opened up eventually the more i began to understand myself.
Today i am much more confident, i am more comfortable being alone totally independent even emotionally. I can say i can feel i am whole again n dat i dont need to rely much on people atleast emotionally. I still miss him but my time speny with him somewhere had all answers to every problem dat i faced after separation. In my pain, sadness, in state of feeling lost i remember his words n i get all solutions i need. As if he already gave enuf to me in process dat its enuf for this life n dat i will keep going in his guidance with the help of his memories or dreams.
Im destined for great many things and in order to understand my true purpose in life n the ways to achieve the purpose i had to go thru all this. I had to meet my twin soul who left me only with my true purpose in life n ways to achieve it. He gave me everything that was needed. I figured it out after 2 years of separation after asking several questions to myself. I remained angry all this time the uncontrollable rage was hard to manage and during all this i remained rude to people around me but im finally beginning to find peace n dat it was all necessary in order to bring the best out of me.
I know the pain will never go away and even his presence in some or the other way.
Hi angel 19
Yes, I have them too. In my dreams we do not speak but we understand what we are thinking. It literally feels like “meeting in a dream”. I read once, when two people meet in a dream, it is when you are both thinking deeply and telepathically you connect because you conscious level is shutdown.
If you want to stop these dreams, i can’t remember how, but I remember I googled it, and there are ways. Personally, i like the dreams when they happen.
🙂
Princess
These dreams always torment me…it happened much frequently after said replied to his last mail dat i dont want to see his face even till my last breath. He sent dat mail after his engagement apologising for not inviting me how ridiculous!
Since den its regular phenomenon wenever i am stressed out i see him in every 2 weeks.
hi angel1919
i have to be honest with you, i believe it is very important to examine your situation from a rational and unexplainble perspective. Although I do not know the context of your dreams with him, and only you can be the judge of whether it is a telepathic phenomena. You must also consider the possiblity that these dreams are triggered from your trauma of your last conversation with him. I often like to examine my dreams at http://www.dreammoods.com and it is interesting to read all the possible explanations for what you see or say to eachother. Often times it is triggered by something that has happened.
hii princess
I used to visit dat site before but my dreams have become much weird since i hav met him. It doesn’t serve my purpose well. I am piscean and he is a scorpio. When i first met him i got a lot of dreams abt all my past lives i hav spent with him. All the memory of forgotten places came back to me in my dreams. The more our relation progressed the more deeper n weirder my dreams became. I get a lot of prophetic dreams as i am highly intuitive n things do happen just as i see them. I even saw him engagement with that girl a year before it happen and in the same month wen i had that dream.
Even when we were together i used to get dreams related to him and they usually tell me things that are happening with him or what his current state of mind is. I always hear him in my head some how i managed to block his thoughts that telepathy literally killed me.
But i am not able to block these dreams of him coming to me and meeting me. Even in my dreams im angry with him and i try to push him away reminding all the wrong things he did, Yet they are dreams and ur defenses usually exist in your waking life. Your are more vulnerable in ur dreams. I read somewhere that our departed loved ones communicate with us on a soul level while we are in deep sleep some of it we remember as dreams most part we forget.
Crazy, you couldn’t have put together better words to describe 100% of what i have been spiritually feeling and encountering. Life and love is far beyond immeasurably full of crazy weird possibilities and fixed coincidences that we just know it was meant to be, and happen for a reason.
I met my twin flame when I was 12. I was having some family issues with my brother. All of my friends liked him at the time. I remember taking one look at him and wanting to go off in the opposite direction. I had had a dream about a guy with brown hair and blue eyes a year before I met him. Still to this very day I feel like he is the only guy I can fully say no to when it comes to anything. I wanted to run away from him the first time I met him. He came after me.
We became good friends. I had invited him to my thirteenth birthday party and I remember my friends and I chasing after him then he jumped the fence and got his pants caught on it and ripped a hole in them. He broke down and spent most of the party sitting in my mom’s front garden. He was so upset with himself, I sat there next to him and keep reassuring him that it was just an accident that his dad wouldn’t be THAT mad about it. It was in that moment that I realized that we really connected.
Nobody understood how I could like him so much cause all everybody else saw was his exterior, the front that he put up. My friends started to not like him because they couldn’t REALLY see him. After that day he randomly started showing up at my house just to hang out and talk. Sometimes we would go on walks around the park that was in-between both of our houses and we would talk.
One day he came over and I we sat out on the front porch and just talked, then when he was getting ready to leave he kissed me. I remember feeling everything in my whole body going numb and I felt so connected to him in that moment. We never dated and part of me thinks it was because we were afraid of how we felt around each other.
We were best friends for 4 years. In those 4 years we watched one another date other people. Most of the time it was me watching him date other people. I knew that I wanted him, but I didn’t know why. I watched him date people on and off, yet I was the one he would always come back to. He was there through my family problems, and when I got my head burned. When we were 16 he had called me one night and told me to meet him up at the park where we usually would meet up at. I remember watching him walk towards me with no shoes or a shirt on. He immediately came up to me and hugged me. He had a burn mark on his back. He had his brother do it to him. He had been fighting with his mom and he just walked out of the house to come meet me. I will never forget that night cause I was so worried about him. He said bye to me and kissed me then he never showed up for school that week. His mom had sent him to a mental hospital.
That same year after he got back he moved to South Carolina. I was devastated and I realized that I was in love with him. We had been separated. He came to visit me around Christmas that year. We had been keeping in touch and emailing each other and I got an email asking what I was doing one night and I let him know that I was just chilling with my parents watching TV. Then I heard a ring on the doorbell, like I always used to. He drove 17 hrs back to Texas for Christmas and I was his first stop once he got there. He had started doing drugs and selling them and it made me so upset to see him spiraling downward. We stopped talking for a while after that.
I started dating other guys and just having fun and he had one girlfriend that he was with on and off for 4 years. Two years later after I had graduated and just broken up with my boyfriend of almost a year I thought about him and asked him how he was doing. He immediately responded back telling me how much he hated his girlfriend. Shortly after that he found out that she was pregnant and he stopped talking to me.
His son was born on October 5th, of 2008. They had given him up for adoption so he could have a better life. I didn’t know this at the time cause the last time I had talked to him was in May of that year, 6 months earlier. Two years later I was going on a road trip with a friend and my boyfriend at the time(now husband)to Charleston, South Carolina. The EXACT place that he lived, and it was 4 years later in May. I reached out to him and he never responded. I continued on with my life. I went to Czech that year with my boyfriend. Then in November of that year he added me on Facebook. We started talking again and I found out he was back in Texas. I was engaged. He came and met my fiance. He then left and moved to Utah. We kept in touch through to December and then he told me he loved me and that he could never get me out of his head. I immediately dropped everything and broke up with my fiance. Everything in my mind was going completely crazy but everything made sense to me. I was going to drop everything and move to Utah to be with him. He talked me out of it. He told me to go back to my fiance.
I got married in October that following year. I have been married for 2 and a half years now and I have a son of my own now. We talk every once in a while, most of the time it happens when we have dreams about each other, but we can never talk for very long or we will lose track of time completely and we forget that we have separate lives. He has a girlfriend and I am married and the last time we talked 3 weeks went by like it was nothing. We can’t talk long cause if we do we cross boundaries that we would have if we were talking to other people. I know every little thing that turns him on. Our friendship can ruin our relationships and when I brought that up to him last time we talked and he got mad. Very mad. I told him that we either couldn’t talk to each other or that we would have to have boundaries. So he stopped talking to me. He kept saying that he would end up with me before he died. Like his girlfriend didn’t even matter to him.
Our relationship is VERY complicated.
Allison,
I do not doubt you have something special with this person, considering, how you have kept in touch for so long, and your paths are somehow entwined for so many yrs.
However, he has many deep personal issues. This reminds me a bit of my twin. The moment he told you he loved you, and then he took it back and told you to go back to your fiance, Is similar to what my twin did. My twin wanted to marry me, but he always struggled with the fact that he only would if he was very successful, and had a lot of money to make me happy. Near the end, his career was not going well, and he kept telling me to marry someone who could take care of me, and give me the things he cannot. of course, I did not want to, but in some way I believe that was his way of wanting the best for me. I believe your guy also did not feel he had the power to make you happy and thats why he wanted you to marry your fiance and live the happy life that he knows he cannot give you. I do believe he really cares for you but I think you should consider for yourself is it healthy to have this “complicated” relationship?
You both obviously care a LOT about each other, however, you are married and he has a gf. This walking the middle thing, is not fair to either your husband or his gf. Remember he has many personal issues. and until he takes care of them, any relationship together is destined for trouble. The fact that he tells you to marry, then continues a relationship with you and continuously tries to push the boundaries, is extremely immature. Do you care if you lose your marriage? If your marriage matters, stop and think what you are doing. Juggling too much may leave you with nothing. Take care.
Hi, I stumbled across your post after doing some research on twin flames. It made very interesting reading for me, as I felt I could’ve written most of it myself! This perfectly describes my relationship with my husband right from the start. We are I think in/approaching what you called the separation stage. We are literally driving each other insane and holding each other back from certain things.
However I am desperate to come through this together, we have 2 beautiful children and are into our 10th year together.
Is it possible to learn to function well as a couple/family again?! I do hope so..
hi Mrs. W,
Of course it is possible, as long as BOTH of you want to work on it. If he does not want to work at it with you, there will come a point where everything will fall apart. I am apart from my ex almost a yr and a half, and many things are better (health, mind,clarity) but the one thing that never changes is my pain in my heart. best wishes and i hope it works out for you two.
x
I am glad I came across your post. Your story mirrors that of my own. I have hope that some day we will reunite in a happy and healthy way. After everything, the love is still there, and I know he will always be with me in thoughts and feelings. I will always feel him near me and think of him there is no ignoring it even when I want to. The void deep within my heart will always be there, and happiness and good things will just never feel as they should without him in my life, but I am still connected to him, and maybe some day all this pain and confusion will end after we both grow to where we need to be. We were only harming each other being together, until we take care of ourselves first. My love for him is like no other, and I say to people unless you feel exactly what I feel in my heart and went through, you will never understand a love like this. Every comment you made I can relate to in my own personal experience. It is like reading my own story. Good luck to you, I hope everything works out.
hi christina,
yes, it indeed sounds like we have experienced similar emotions. however, i promise you happiness may not be as they once were, but like fine wine, a balance of sweet and bitter is what makes you refine. These experiences have only enhanced my understanding of life, and what is important, vs. what is not. x take care sweety. x
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Have you found love since ?
hi leigh,
No. Its hard to imagine loving someone else when I continue to love my TF. There simply is no room for someone else, and I am left having to deal with life loving someone who is inmany ways, not “Real”. I can’t touch him, speak to him, but in every way, he is always there.
Sounds like a curse rather being lucky for having found true love 😦
Hi! princess this is definitely what i’m going through at the moment Since I was 5 I remember having feelings for girls/boys, In High School I liked a guy but then I remember meeting this girl at the age of 15 and fell head over heels, We were inseparable by that time I knew I was a lesbian but not okay with my sexuality still being confused and trying to come to terms of accepting myself I didn’t want anyone to find out and of course I never told her how I felt, she ended up leaving to a continuation school and we parted different ways. after high school, I changed my image completely I went from being over-weight to losing weight a complete transition since I used to be a tomboy all throughout K-12. I remember always bumping into that girl I was in love in HS but never spoke to her we would just interlock eyes, from 2005 until July 3, 2012, casual encounters here and there but never spoke. one day my friend asked me to hang out with her and We ended up hanging out that night and when I immediately saw here I felt so connected something I had never felt before, I fell in love again like that feeling was never gone it was an amazing feeling, we started seeing each other but it was complicated. she then left me for a guy and I was completely heartbroken, after a month she came back to look for me and said she loved me and said she felt the same way but the disapproval of her parents would always be in the way, so she had a boyfriend and always seeing me on the side. she finally got rid of him and we continued to see each other but I was always emotional hurt because I always had that feeling she see another guy, again and yes, it happened again. she is now seeing someone else and I tried walking away with no Contact for a month and she is now again looking for me while dating this guy, her parents had a feeling about us so Idk it’s confusing Idk if I even make sense. Idk if there’s so much emotional baggage. Like you say in your story I get sick sometimes just thinking about her.. there’s times i’ll space out and just start thinking about things she’s doing it’s super weird… not too long ago she sent me an invitation to her sons bday party.. i’m so exhausted with feeling this way but I know she’s the one..
Thank you for this. I feel your pain. Sick of feeling low and lost. Sick of seeing numbers on my clock that confirm that this is what’s happening. I just want to feel whole again. I hope you one day sort things out. Namaste.
I am of the opinion that that we can meet more than one twin flame or soulmate on our life journey. If you could open up your mind to the idea of opening up your heart to a new more satisfying experience i am certain the same magick could be rekindled and the same electricity and telepathy with someone new and in your present. Yesterday`s history, tomorrows a mystery, Today is the Gift which is why its called the Present. You can have equally profound experiences if you stop hankering after the past which is the history.
good luck :- )
ps: Princess you sound “stuck” where life needs to “flow” to grow..Being stuck is not Real, so at least you are realising the illusion of being stuck with this fixation on the unrequited twin flame is of your own making here. From your own construct of mind.
Kim Everything you said about a past twin flame mirrors one of my past experiences. This guy I met was entering my heart feelings mind, my dreams and very connected to the point I didn`t like the invasion of my private thoughts. I realised I had my own freewill and mojo going on. So in dreams took charge and would tell him to go away. Wake myself up from his visits..After all he had dumped me a few months before. Quite dramatically over the slightest thing and out of the blue. But once I accepted it. He kept reconnecting to me. I blocked him consciously but in dreams he visited more often. I even thought of it as psychic attack as he knew about the magical arts. But then so did I (smile) ..after a lot of confusion I realised whats meant to be would have happened and it didn`t happen. This was some years ago now. Since then I have met another twin flame, only the once mind. But on this occasion he was married and not likely to leave his marriage. But we both felt this extreme attraction we could not block out so parted company.
If we aren’t all meant to be with our twin flames, why is the sex so amazing?!
Until now I only know, she is the most beautiful of all God’s creations in my eyes, in my heart, and I will always love her till my last breath , she told me living a life trying to hold on to her marriage n being apart from me is like death it self, but she hold on for her daughters sake n the promised she made to her parents, I can only try to respect her decision, though it really hurt
If there is such a thing as a twin flame, I can say that I met him in high school. We’re apart now and that’s good. I say this because nothing really good comes out of anything when we’re together– I can’t even concentrate. After 7 years, this is the only time I felt really peaceful… and I’m really glad. (well, we stay in touch and sometimes meet once a year).
Though I’m wondering if someone else will come with that same intensity. I know I’m capable of loving someone else like I did with that person because, you know, telepathy is weirdly convenient. Hahaha. (I’m not saying this as a joke, but you get me, right?)
Thank you for opening up such a large part of yourself to share your experience, but in my opinion, your story reads like it was more of a karmic connection or karmic soul tie than a twin flame.
The reason I say this is that when you are with your twin flame the result is primarily totally positive. The energy around you is so pure and positive, the hives, the suicidal thoughts, the depression all of that simply does not occur while you are adjoined with your twin flame. Any feelings of depression or ailments would come during the separation period. The separation period is when you experience the feelings of intense pain and agony but during that period, it is when you learn the absolute worst about yourself.
My Twin and I we mirror each other in terms of our childhood. His father abandoned his family when he was young, my father abandoned mine. Both of us had emotionally scarred mothers and both of us feared becoming our parents. He is father, me my mother. During our time together, I started growing in the most beautiful way, I started coming into a realization about who I was. I say this to tell you that when I met him, I was sure the reason why I held onto women as a possible romantic coupling was because of my childhood abuse and molestation. I had thought that women were safer and men were predatory. And although on some surface level I did feel that to an extent, the truth was that I was really holding onto the possibility of being with a woman because I was afraid no man would ever love me. I was afraid of being used, and then tossed away by men so I simply “pretended” I didn’t want their affections. I turned away from God to, I didn’t like going to church and I had thought that it was because I found church boring. But talking with my Twin I began to realize that I was really angry with God. I didn’t realize it before, but I was so angry with God for the abuse I experienced as a child. I thought he was such a cruel God to allow such a thing, I felt abandoned by him.
Those revelations made me feel excited because I was becoming enlightened. My Twin actively, consciously made me want to be better, to become more spiritual. To become more aware. This is what a Twin Flame does. Soul mates and Karmic soul ties will work to make you grow and develop but its subconsciously. The Twin Flame however will make you seek spiritual awareness and enlightenment on a conscious mindful level. All of those revelations, they happened WHILE I WAS with my Twin flame. Not after.
But the real sign of a twin flame is the sheer agony you feel afterwords. You speak of developing real physical ailments while in the presence of your “twin” but you don’t get hives and start having suicidal thoughts in the presence of your twin. That is the time to feel whole and complete. The arguments are also a sign of a karmic relationship because those relationships tend to be more focused on the negative end of the spectrum than positive. Yes, Twin Flames force you to face the negatives of yourself, but its not in a toxic format.
To be physically sick and suffering from sudden depression during your time with your partner and then to be free of that once separated sounds very much like a karmic tie, because it is toxic. Also both individuals are so bounded to each other, that they can’t break away even though they know they are no good for one another.
With your twin flame, you know you are good for one another, it simply is either one does not recognize it but becomes terrified of the subconscious soul bond and the other does recognize their twin and welcomes the bond. Thus creating the runner and the chaser dynamic.
My twin brought out my fear of being abandoned. This fear however, this ugly side of me it was only brought out through our separation. But the really ugly part was that my fear was his reality. See through my fear of abandonment, I began to develop this large paranoia that I wasn’t worthy of receiving love because of my skin. My race. Call that crazy, but living in America when you aren’t white with blonde hair can be hard. Every magazine I open would show just pretty white girls, I’m biracial, but I’m still a black girl. The girls on the magazines didn’t look like me. I started however developing a complex around the time a medical study was released and the local news did a story on it. The story was that Asian men were considered the least attractive and least desirable mating partners to women, and black women were considered the least attractive, least desirable mating partners. This story also came at a time when statistics were out and were showing black women were marrying at lower rates. I then would hear my own black men, male cousins that were black like me, saying that they didn’t like black girls and that they wanted to date an Asian girl, or a Latina basically anything but black…ooch. I started feeling like well if my own kind won’t love me, who will?
My Twin he mirrored this fear, accept he–a hispanic man–actively sought out dating white girls because he feels he needs them to validate him. See he actively rejects dating other latina girls–women of his own race—he despises hearing the spanish language, he has a deep shame for where he comes from and its heartbreaking because I can see the beauty in him so much but he can’t. But his actions mirrored my fear. I was afraid of being abandoned or passed up on love because of my race and he’s rejecting his race.
Needless to say, the separation period caused me to realize this ugly part of myself. This deep seeded hatred that I have come to have for myself over the years. But it is now in the moments of sheer anguish of separation that I am beginning to become conscious of who I am, and I am finally moving to a place of self love.
In my opinion, this is what a Twin Flame does. It mirrors you in the most beautiful ways and in the ugliest of ways. But even in separation you just know you will rejoin and be a perfect fit.
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Hello Princessdefit , i didnt understand one thing ! You ve closed this very nice article telling basically that all that matters is love . That guy loved you so much and you also and you know that this type of connection its very rare to find … but why its better to leave from this eventually ? I’ve met my twin flame and i ve decided to walk away cause he didnt undertastand yet how much he loved me and loves me …. i really hope in the future to understand that what we’ve shared whats one of the most rare feelings that two people can share .
I dont know why people have to mix up this “soul twin” thing with romantic feelings.As if only two romanticaly involved partners are soul twin.This is utterly wrong.You can fing your soul twin in a friend too.I have found my soul twin and we are together since our first grade.She is my friend “saba” and we are exactly alike and exactly opposite.We will argue about something so fiercly and after some time i will think that i was wrong and she would think she was wrong,like she woul start defending the thing she was against and i would start defending what i was against 😀 and arguing would go on and on.And we love each other so much and dont confuse our relationship with “best friend” coz we both have our best friends but somehow we both are connected.We will even go through same phases of life,like our destiney is same.She will feel exactly what i am feeling,physically and mentaly and emotionaly.She just had an accidant and i fell sick after listening to that not just because i was worried but because we are destined to feel same.She was having sever body pain and when i fell sick my whole body was aching like never before.What i am trying to say is we think same,do same,go through same feelings,what happens to me will happen with her;sooner or later but it will.We can tell exactly what we are thinking.We would play this game that she would say to me “if you are my soul twin then tell me what i am thinking and 95% of time i would tell exactly what she was thinking.”I cant explain we will just know what is other thinking or feeling.We love and hate each other cant imagine to stay away from each other and will push each other away at same time.We will fight like we have never fought with anyone, but we will end up loving each other even more.We just cant stay appart it aches,literally it would ache.And all of these feelings are without any romantic connection or feelings we both are 100% straight.What i am saying is that you can find your soul twin in a friend too and it does not have to b romantic.I love her so much that it surprices me and as much as i love to have this connection with het it also scares the life out of me coz our destinies are also tethered and she would go through same life phase.And if i suffer from some sorrow she would too.And i just want hapiness in her life and feeling like may be she is suffering because of me makes me wanna end this connection somehow but i know this is stupid of me to think like this.But i love her without any romantic feelings and she is and always will be my soul twin.And i am blessed to have her,someone who can understand me at the time no one can, sometimes me too but she would understand.💕👭
Thank you for sharing. Very interesting read!
It is good to find a place to read others’ stories and share mine.
I and my twin flame love each other since we were 10.
Parallels in our lives:
– both born in the same year
– both married in the same year (to different people)
– our fathers were in the same profession
– both have 2 daughters each
– both separated from our spouse for a period of time due to jobs
We were neighbours at 10 years of age (today we are 48) . When children at that age and in that era of no internet hardly knew what love was, we felt this pull that was unexplainable. It was agonizing and exhilarating at the same time. Exhilaration, because of experiencing the first stirrings of love. Agonizing because we did not know how to say the three magical words to each other.
Fast forward to our teenage years – people around us could sense that we shared special feelings for each other. Finally we started accepting this too. Our first date was a movie (don’t remember which one). We held hands throughout and it was divine….probably that’s why I don’t remember the name of the movie…..the focus was the feeling.
He is the runner, I am the chaser. Being true to his nature/soul contract, he started doing the reappearing and disappearing acts. Meanwhile I got tired of the cat and mouse game. A handsome, caring guy appeared in my life who was at ease with his feelings and said all the beautiful things a girl likes to hear. In short, he swept me off my feet and I completely forgot about my twin. The separation began sans the agony. He found someone else. I went on my own roller coaster ride – broke up with Mr. right and a few years later met and married my husband. Meanwhile my twin got married too. We both have fabulous spouses (another parallel, I guess!). It was 16 years of separation, we did not think about each other much in this period.
Freaky incident:
His brother goes to my hausband’s office in relation to work. He happens to ask my hubby if he is ‘My’ hubby? Don’t know how he knows – maybe because of us being family friends ( even though we were not in touch for 16 yrs). My hubby connects us over the phone. I don’t get to meet my twin’s brother even though I try. The twin’s brother goes back and casually gives my contact number to my twin. Universal forces send my twin to my city for a business meeting and he has my number so he contacts me. We meet at my place. at this point we are back to being just friends ( with hidden feelings that even we are not aware of). Just happy to be in touch again.
Then we start exchanging emails…we wait for each others emails…..we meet once in a while with families when we are in the same town.
Once we decide to meet alone and the dam breaks. We confess our love to each other. This is what is probably known as the ‘honeymoon period’ in the twin flame relationship. It lasts a few months and then the runner runs and I am devastated. Of course, now I understand that he must have been in agony too.
I must mention that another person from the past had cropped up just before I reconnected with my twin. I know now that to handle the twin flame separation, one needs training or else it can burn you to ashes. This person was the training provided to me by the universe. We did not meet but he caused me so much agony that I was able to handle the twin flame separation when the agony struck again. I had been there and felt that ! Of course the agony was still quite unbearable but at least I survived it.
My spiritual journey began, I started reading books, listening to podcasts trying to find deeper reasons for all that was happening. Spiritual leaders like Brian Weiss, Eckhart Tolle, Neal Donald Walsch and so many more changed my life, my perspectives. One book that has now become my bible is ‘The barn dance’ by James Twyman. His life altering story….mesmerising and agonising at the same time, gets you in touch with what is beyond.
Then during a period of great agony I asked the universe for help and the universe responded by making me stumble on Liora’s ‘Twin Flame Stages’ video. Suddenly, everything fell in place. I had my answers.
I am still in touch with my twin. We are in different countries. I know it is his period of rediscovery. He is still not sure how to handle the tsunami of feelings that well up inside him. Let’s see where this journey takes us….will keep you updated if you all are interested.
hi i’m sixteen but i’ve been having dreams about a guy since the last 3 years i dont know who is he i mean when i’m dreaming i know him but as soon as i wake up i forget his face. in my dreams we share a great bond and are presented as lovers,but still i dont know who is he ? my friends think i’m making up stories but its true what is it?
I have met my twin flame..no doubt about it. He is my ideal man. I have dreamt about marrying a man like him since I was younger. I told him that I love him..but I shouldn’t have done that. I’m married with a child and my family is really my entire world. Although, now I’m living in my own hell because I can’t love my husband like I do my twin ever again. I’m a Christian woman who doesn’t want to go through a divorce due to believeing that marriage is a sacred union.. something my husband also feels strongly about. Lately though, since I can feel his soul and experience his heart, (my twin), I just can’t love any other the same now. We have a divine path to fullfil, and I know when day (even when we’re old and grey) we’ll be together. May God save us from any agony till then. Amen
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